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JOURNAL2026-02-01 I am back home for a few weeks and I have to now catch up on house work. The sub-zero temperatures have made it difficult to work and there has been a lot of damage from the last 2 weeks due to the weather. Due to security concerns I decided to restrict contact to Onionshare and XMPP messages. I will update those other options soon but for right now I am signing all website updates with a pgp signature to ensure authenticity. I have been also stock piling more guns and ammo in the last few weeks due to the current political climate. While I have always been skeptical of the government. With The President and his agencies now making claims against our 1st and 2nd Amendment rights along with the Department of Homeland Security's lax posture on our 4th Amendment, I feel now is the time to start preparations for possible harsh responses from both political isles. I have been always firm in taking care against those who wish to tread.2026-01-12 For the past 3 weeks I have been staying in a hotel for my new job training. While the classes and work has been pretty straight forward, being away from my family is mentally taxing. I have been biding my time mostly reading and writing. In between stents of reading and writing, I have been brushing up on some small games and retraining my puzzle skills with small challenges. I think I have given myself a lot of breaks learning new things last year so this year I want to keep challenging myself to learn something new every day or at least practice my skills more. I will continue working on the site and update old articles and adding some new information. I have a few ideas to keep things fresh.2025-12-18 Since my time off I have re-read and finally burned through some of my back catalog of half written documents / ideas. I still have more I wish to update. I begin my training the beginning of the new year where I will be gone from home for about 4 weeks. By that time I hope to have finished up on all relevant updates for the site so it can settle for that month. After experimenting with several browsers for the new year, since my workflow has been the same for onward of a decade, I have finally decided to give up on the modern browsers and migrate back to a browser I can trust, dillo. I do not use much of the modern web and everything I usually would need from it, I can usually mitigate of find alternatives for. I have used GNU-Icecat for a long time and never felt the need to change that. While Firefox can be made to a similar standard with Arkenfox and Betterfox profile updates, I do not like to have to go through that much effort to just browse the web. And I simply do not like chromium forks, I do not like the feature sets, nor the edits I have to do to allow to follow my standards of browsing. But breaking from this point I am very excited to begin working again and getting a new pair of boots for work. Since I started in corrections, I have burned through 4 pairs of boots, but I think for this upcoming job demanding a lot of outdoor work, I want to invest in a solid pair of boots that have a lifetime warranty. I have been wearing Rothco jump boots due to the 'conditions' I worked in. I wanted something I can reasonably get covered in vomit, toilet water, urine, etc, without me feeling guilty about mucking through in them. With my work now being a majority outside I am very happy to transition. My 3 pairs of jeans I have been wearing for better part of 12 years have finally hit it's last leg and I might go for a 'work' khaki style pant soon that will hopefully last me another 12 years. I will be taking the tor links down for some time while I finish updating the site to prevent needing to update / restart it regularly. However it will be back up after the new year with all of the updates made so far (and hopefully plus some.) Happy holidays, yule tidings, and a new year.2025-12-11 I have been once again experimenting with my workflow, however I think the biggest project in terms of tweaking is setting a offsite server for redundancy and backups. I have a spare laptop and desktop that I can easily run off grid with a basic internet connection via tethered hotspot (though I may just steal wifi via an "open network"). I am no longer working in corrections and my last official day is today. I am going to begin working for a large telecom company running fiber to rural areas. The money was too good to pass up and while I enjoyed my work, I was reaching a mental and emotional breaking point. I plan on summarizing my experience in an audio entry because while I did enjoy my time, the experiences I had are worth sharing for humor alone.2025-12-01 Happy holidays everyone, while I am writing this I am actively looking for a new job. Corrections has finally ran its course on both my patience but my emotional stability. While I enjoyed working the job, and my immediate coworkers were great. I felt like a majority of the employees have this dogmatic mentality that because every shift functions different that their shift is correct about how things should function. It leaves every other shift to dislike each other. All of the Majors and higher up officers work Monday through Friday so 1st and half of 2nd shift get most of the support and promoted faster than others. Which makes those who put down the hours and effort on other shifts seem like they are being passed over. There were a lot of good deputies they wanted an alternative position get passed over. I do not know where the future might take me. But I do know I will be fine and keep moving toward my goal of sustainability / preparedness. Happy Yule and New year seasons. 2025-11-21 My paranoia is getting to me again. Normally it comes in and I begin to harden things as I see that I need them. New cameras, locks, wiping drives, etc. But I feel like these last few weeks have been particularly bad for me. I have reinstalled and wiped my drives more times than the last year. I am running everything through a flashdrive and VM. I do not know why I get this way. But even outside of computers I would often throw everything I did not deem immediately useful and start from scratch until things were perfect. I even started mining Monero on a used desktop hooked to a solar generator. It is currently generating about $60.00 a month for free since the panels outweigh the electric costs. I started looking for a new job, working in corrections have finally made me hit the wall. My mental health has been the worst it has been in the past year.2025-09-05 I have been spending way too much time playing Magic: The gathering the last week. I might need to take a break. I feel like I have been planning more than working in the last few days. Nothing really serious but I had to re-certify for my firearms and other training classes these last 2 weeks, so I have been a bit distracted recently.2025-07-28 Between the heat and the rain I cannot work outside as much so my weeks have been lazy for some time. I have been doing some more recording ideas that I will upload soon as well as written a new short story to kill some time. While I would like to get more out there, I am having a hard time finding ideas. So I will keep plucking away at what I have already and hopefully some more interesting ideas come my way. In the meanwhile I will keep helping community members with their projects and homes while I wait for more hardware to come. Making my infrastructure more robust. I think I started to enjoy the process of talking into a microphone more. Ironically between it all, I actually quit my job working at a local radio station because of the playbacks and listening to my own voice in post. People liked it at the time but I could not stand it. But I feel better about it the more I ramble about different ideas into the void.2025-07-17 My, like many homes, have experienced hard rains and high waters where I live. I have friends and family all that have to dig their lives out of the mud. I thankfully have prepared for most of the storms, I made reasonable attempts to help sandbag other homes in my area. In the previous weeks I also informed others in my community. While I cannot stretch myself and expect much to be done I had an eye opening moment when it comes to the work I do in my spare time. I have been focusing on building my life to be completely sustainable, but I was doing this during the last year's major flood event in the Appalachia region, while uploading content about how to do it yourself. I feel like I could be doing more in the evenings with my spare time since all of my outside work would be done by that time. Hopefully everyone enjoys it.2025-06-30 My random AI projects are going well and I upgraded to a Thinkpad P50 to handle the workloads I have been throwing at it. My Thinkpad X240 just could not handle the labor and I felt this was the natural progression from the T420 and T440 I have been use to. The rain is coming down heavy here and I need to start reinforcing the under of the house with sandbags and concrete blocks to hopefully block the water from hitting the lining of the home. So far I am extremely please with everything the P50 provides.2025-05-30 My truck finally died last week, with a faulty starter I took the thing down realized there was a crack in the engine mounting spreading from the passenger side to the rear of the cab. I put everything back and decided to trade it in for a more modest SUV. With the SUV came some adjustment periods since I have been sleeping in the bed of my truck since October of 2024 I wanted something I can sleep in and as it turns out with the seats of the SUV folded down and the driver/passenger seats moved forward I can fit a single sized air mattress in the back. With my solar generator and a air pump I did a couple tests runs while working over the weekend and it is very comfortable. I have been building some more pallet garden boxes and want to get some good soil in them in the upcoming weeks. Possibly might be able to get some pumpkins and peppers growing before fall. I also have been experimenting more with home brewed wines. I have been trying this strawberry wine with some local honey to keep my pollen immunity up. So far the taste tests have been a bit bitter but drinkable. I think with the end of this year I should have a good system of brewing and storing wines under the house.2025-04-24 I am combing through some old articles to update and eventually will be merging them into PDF styled books for publishing. I also have been contacted by several people asking about updating some of my older articles for the latest lapses in security since 2025 kicked off, as well as my thoughts of the fall of 4chan since I feel like many of us online denizens have been touched by it's cultural significance one way or another. I hope to upload these latest updates soon and publish more before the end of the month.2025-04-12 We have internet and everything up and running to have a fully functional 21st century home. I am still sleeping at the jail but I feel like I might quit soon since I really do not need the money any more. The hours are finally taking a toll on my mental and physical health after these couple of years. I feel my emotional stability slipping causing strain on my family with the workload on the farm makes my time off another burden. I only have a few things I need to keep upgrading on for the upcoming year. Water storage I can do in winter but for upgrading solar I would like to have a surplus of construction material set aside before I lean into a larger battery storage and upgrading the panels.2024-11-14 I finally have power, took a hot shower for the first time in months and immediately get sick after. Weather here is hovering 35 Fahrenheit in the mornings and 55 to the mid afternoon. No internet at home so I am using the internet connections I come across as I relax and have time to think for a while. I have all the food I need for some months now with my fridge and freezer up and running. I made my family our first home made meal to celebrate using electric instead of fire or pre-prepared food, though we voted for breakfast for dinner of pancakes, cornbread, and eggs. While we don't have internet and service here is non-existant, we have been keeping ourselves entertained with the movies, games, and audio books I have downloaded in preparation of us being without for some time. Solar generators and take a rest and I know my family is extremely happy we don't have to use them anymore. I hope to give more updates soon, however I will be offline working three sixteen hour shifts for the next three days, so I will be sleeping at the jail.2024-11-06 Another election come and gone. While I don't take much part in the hard politic of it all, I do feel like another four years of Trump is going to make my life a tad more difficult on the solar and green energy costs. My spouse is particularly upset at the aspect of project 2025 and the projections that come with it. I am still without a complete and dedicated source of power, though water is no issue. I am mainly using candles as a source of light and when needing to walk the acres of the property at night, I use my tac-light. Food prep and winter packing is being increased with the possible increase in post election panic setting in for some. I am very rural and still have a strong level of arms around me. So I feel secure that if the worst was to pass with civil unrest and the like, I and my family will be safe.2024-07-19 Well I have most of the work done, which doing so by myself, and by hand for a majority of the process has been mentally straining at best and back breaking at it's worst. Though I have found myself having some "me time" allowing me to think. Due to the recent death of my computer has forced me to migrate to a Thinkpad T440P. I have also thought about bridging into other mediums, possibly audio monologues to process my thoughts along side my writings. Since writing takes a large amount of sitting time and dedication my like simply cannot allow right now, doing "Audio Logs" might allow me to keep making content based on my interests while driving to and from work, since my drive is now about an hour long. I hope to find inspiration during this time. For those hoping for more content, I also hope for some too. For those waiting patiently, I thank you.2024-06-18 The last few months have been rough, with the spring and summer I have been forced to sell my house and move. Finalizing paperwork and trying to rebuild from scratch. Which means I have to build foundations, re-run electric, water, septic. Completely strip the old house of all the upgrades I did to maintain a minimal lifestyle. The land that I am moving to is further away from the city, which is a plus, but I also have to commute further to work. And with me already working 16 hour shifts, I am sleeping at the jail during that time to save on gas and time. With the days off I do have, it has been completely dedicated to packing, paperwork, and trying to upkeep both the old house I am moving from and squaring up the new land I am moving to. It has taken over my entire life since the end of April. Since settling down I have allowed myself to get complacent with some lifestyle choices and maintaining a minimal mentality. So I have been compressing everything down as I pack. Everything not essential is being given away or sold to fund the future endeavors before the upcoming winter, which may seem distant, but will come far faster than one would expect when they are focused on comforts and not practical survival. I have reclaimed a lot of my space and brought back down all of my personal items to fit back into my truck so I can sleep at the jail and keep a decent regiment of hygiene and comfortable sleep.2024-03-14 Built some garden boxes from some old lumber and built another bunker/shelter. Also got a good deal on some motion sensor cameras/lights and had them installed around the perimeter. I also used the remainder of the wood to build a camper/topper to my truck. Had a couple of days off to complete everything. I feel really accomplished and am excited to start adding more local trees to the yard. I did splurge on a solar generator with some savings, this should carry the load for the rest of my house in the instance of an outage.2024-02-15 I am being confronted with death more and more each day. These deaths are usually sudden. I have been labeled on my shift as some machine, I have now been assigned for eleven "Special Details", two "Special Details" which involve someone dying. I am required to have a partner, which have assisted with these labels. We have to scribe down a record of their deaths. I have to watch them die and write every detail of it for records. I have noticed my emotions are muted. My co-workers cry, they have to see administration to talk about what happened. I don't, I continue my day. I keep being told how traumatizing it was for them, and how hard it is. I cannot help but feel like they are lying, and they feel like I feel, but I am just not sure.2024-01-02 I am trying to find a interesting topic to write about. I might want to talk about work more since I have learned a lot since joining the criminal justice system. My work there has certainly reinforced my perspective and outlook on society. I have doubled down on prepping and home security since.2023-12-29 Happy post holidays everyone. Work is still keeping me from updating with my long hours with minimal breaks, household project have also been keeping me busy. I have moved in a dear friend to assist and he is living with me to complete my vision for the compound. I have completed a full stock pile to feed to family of four for 2 years. A dedicated shelter to house a family of four for that duration with all needs met, reinforced, and in my backyard. Now I have to take the winter months to plan and plot to retreat the land above ground. Stay safe.2023-09-11 Finding time to work on anything has become a struggle recently. Between working hours and unbearable heat, anything outside is a burden than a hobby. I have found extreme joy in my work at the jail. 16 hour shifts have been nice to get into. I have found, even with my mentality going into the job, an extreme ware on my psyche in some regards. In particular is inmate deaths on scene, whether due to the extreme violence of the job and the characters I work with, or on intake overdose / detox deaths. While I would like to say the work in the jail is done perfect by fellow Correctional Officers, I found many that lack the resolve, drive to work, or overall ability to make life saving decisions or deal with conflict crisis resolution in any serious way. Due to my current placement and rank I cannot in any real regard correct these issues besides reporting them to higher ups. I have also noticed a lack of fortitude with CO Risk / Inmate Care. We signed into a job that by definition carries a lot of risk, but our safety should not deter us to care for even the most violent of inmates. Refusing medication or proper dietary needs is common due to the nature of some inmates being far more prone to violence than others. I enjoy working with inmates, I enjoy caring for their needs, I also enjoy giving them proper life course correction for basic behaviors, whether that is through talking and listening to their needs, minor tactical restraint, or proper and minimal shows of complete force. I would like to tell more from my experiences there in the last months.2023-05-30 Quit my last job and started working for the county jail. Built a deck and planted a few trees around the property. Had to be AFK for a while to re-organize my life a bit, this was a good break and am excited to get back to work on the site.2023-03-05 Everyone is working 7 days a week for a while. Which is fine for me, cushions the wallet for a while and lets me invest some of that into future endeavors. Been looks to sell some old items and make some money, as some prep gear gets cycled out from wear or being replaced with upgrades. I try to sell off whatever is unneeded or extra. Bought some body armor and more ammo. Have enough food for a year. Found a pallet being liquidated of 6-hour tea candles for about $300 and bought that. So now I have tea candles to last be a lifetime. Might start looking at using those as a winter time replacement to burning wood by setting up a more permanent solution to heating the smaller rooms of my home besides the terracotta heaters.2023-02-12 Work is becoming a pain in the ass overall. Too much is falling through the cracks and my boss has made it well known how little he cares for it. Always happy to request more and expect us to care and not himself. A majority of the staff is looking to quit to find something else. Soon he may be without a majority of the shifts. I am seeing more and more call outs every day. Several transfers and many stepping down from their positions. My spouse is back on their medications, giving them more energy and we have been hitting the gym more often, going on dates, and overall having a renewed sense of joy in the day. This takes a lot of the stress off of me. I can finally sleep a normal amount after almost 2 years.2023-01-24 Adding some more PDFs and rewriting some core documents. Been occupying my time with housing stuff, big windstorm damaged some property and helping a neighbor with his fencing after it was damaged. Been messing with some other DEs in my free time and giving KDE a shot. I am still preferential to GNOME after it's updates and with Debian going in for a freeze soon, I may try the testing branch after.2023-01-13 It's snowing again. I organized the house, getting rid of some things, trying to get back down to a minimal living situation. The kid's room was getting to be more of a mess than I liked, so I built him a toy chest and cleaned out his closet for easier storage. Also moved his bed into his room to see if I can get him into solo sleeping. For about a year we have been having him sleep in our room or in my office when I am working. But I think it is time to try to wean him off that. I also have been trying to write about my experiences growing up. My family had some old journals delivered from when I was in Elementary school, and going through them made me remember what a little terror I was.2023-01-05 With the new year and my contract coming up in February, I am re-starting my yearly negotiations with my employer for more pay. With the power vacuum in the company it should not be too hard to get an overall increase of 2% moving to 8% in April. I also have a couple interviews coming up for some regional jobs that are offering larger percentages but I will stick it out to see what I can get until then. I am looking into some off grid server hosting, I want something I can set and forget for long periods of time, power is the hurtle now, but I have a solar generator on order along with panels and wind turbines, stocked with batteries and a low power device, I can have a server off grid in about 3 months. I have been spending more and more time offline, while I do not mind, it has pushed a lot of my digital work off by quite a bit. Mainly just logging in to update a journal or jot some finances down in a log. I have been looking into some alternative modes of income netting me some extra cash here and there, but all of them are mainly odd jobs taking up some time. I have been looking back at some marketing ventures and seeing success there. Starting this week I am also going to try to keep track of my sleeping habits. I have noticed in the past 6 months I have been cycling through a 4-5 sleep schedule then staying awake for 20 hours at a time with little sleep in between, sometimes a nap in the middle for 30 minutes.2022-12-23 It is currently -27 with windchill. My home is currently resting at an ambient 55. I am so glad I made the emergency run when I did, everything is iced over and from the looks, I see 0 traffic on the main road. Where I live there are 2 snow-plows for the entire county which means this will stay until Monday at the earliest. Listening to the radio on just the reporting, there has already been 3 deaths reported from power outages and hypothermia. We have been experiencing the weather for less than 24 hours.2022-12-22 Large storm coming in tonight. Will likely lose power for a couple days. So I prepped everything I need and have a few back up heating a power sources lined up. I think it will be a bit nice since it will give me time to write, since we will be snowed in. I do however still have to make the attempt to do to work to hold it down and prevent forcing my coworkers into working 16 hours straight.2022-11-28 Holidays are here and I am already burned out on social obligations and work. Been working 6 days a week for a month now and I need a vacation. So I am taking 4 days off to recover. Will be spending more time reading and adding some QOL updates to the site.2022-10-25 Anniversary coming up soon. Along with some this time of year being pretty lax, family occasions still preoccupy a lot of time. Been trying to be more active in my email responses while I have internet. Been playing chess more. Started playing when I got my promotion. My entire shift plays chess, so now we have something to fill the time between tasks.2022-10-17 Been working hard trying train the onslaught of new hires we have been getting. Trying to find reasonable schedules for all of them but still leaves 2 shifts down on people. Started playing chess again and more MTG to balance out work. Money is good though, so I cannot complain too much about everything.2022-10-03 My boss quit, just got sick of fighting the constant uphill battles between contracts. So another promotion came my way. I moved my work days to weekends, taking two weekdays off, weekends are the easiest days to work since little happens and it allows me to catch up / get ahead of the current work week since more work was dumped from the previous person leaving. Should have more time to write however and be more active online since I have the ability to delegate some of the random non-sense out.2022-09-15 Had multiple birthdays this past month, have to build a tiny-home by hand and by myself because some buds backed out of helping once the frame was up. Bought a new lawn mower a couple days ago and tried to run it, a bad weld caused pressure to build up in the gas tank and a spark caused the whole thing to blow up in my face. No injuries that are serious. Small cut on my hand and some metal hitting my face. Super pissed about it though.2022-08-08 Been swamped. Work is all backed up. My boss has been receiving complaints by the day for the past few weeks. So much so we has a inspection at 0200 today and followed up by CSO coming in to ask about the problems we are having. So I am looking forward to working a lot of overtime to get the place back to black. On the other had my boss is doing everything he can to act like the whole thing is not falling down around him. Leaving me in a tough spot. In other news, I have been able to spend more time with my hobbies. Being able to sell a lot of old things taking up space in the closets. While work is stressful at times, I am glad I am in the position I am so I can have the luxury of watching the madness unfold. I will try to write more in the future, but for now I am going to put all of my focus in other work.2022-06-23 Took a long needed vacation for 8 days. Went to Michigan to visit family and took the baby with. Honestly the stress of driving 10 hours with a baby in the car is far more than I bargained for. Going to have to catch up on things I neglected over the week. Also really need to commit to adding more stuff to the page. Been getting back into Magic: The Gathering since my you youngest cousin is now playing more card games. I unloaded some older collections on him that are not worth more than 20 cents of so per card. So good way to clean out the closet.2022-05-26 A lot of rain recently. Have been brushing up on some system maintenance and building a shelf. Wife wanted a media center so I wanted the set up to be nice. Setting the shelf into the wall so it has a classic look with some gravity shelves. I noticed some new wifi networks popping up in range of the house, its weak but strong enough to think I can get a stable connection. Might look into that for another weekend project.2022-05-03 Been working outside non-stop since the weather has been getting warming, down side to this is I am only sleeping somewhere between 4 hours a day. I think I am going to take a weekend off. I need to run though and upload some more PDFs. Might get around to writing again once I finish up some projects.2022-03-21 Been a while since I updated anything, been taking some time to work outside as the weather is good, need to begin building a Mom-Pop Suite in the back end of the property to allow mother-in-law to stay longer term, might just let her live in the Main and I+Spouse take the Suite depending on the finance options. Also converting the work-space into a "Play Room" for the family for larger events with movie screening and lounge/bar options. Just a space to get away from everyone if someone needs a break.2022-02-25 With recent events with Russia, I will be posting more prepper and outdoor styled articles. Most will be recycled material, continuations, or additions to previous articles. I will be doing this hopefully before we as consumers start seeing large cost jumps in some of the materials that will be made scarce by shipment holds and delays, not to mention panic buying or hoarding. For the meanwhile I would recommend stocking on Flour, Wheat, Gas, Oil, and looking into long shelf life preserves. I would also begin to buy vinegar, bleach, baking soda, high % alcohol / liquor and alternative power source generators like solar, 3-fuel, and thermal. As the cost of oil and gas goes up, the cost of maintaining your household will as well. And as fuel costs go up, people will begin holding, panic buying, and all perishable food stores will be depleted quickly.2022-02-17 For the first time a about a week I have slept more than 5 hours a day. I feel refreshed, alive, revitalised. Filed my taxes for the first time in a long time since the birth of my child. Going to put all tax credits for him in a savings account to be given to him in yearly increments after the age of 18 or in a similar fashion upon my death if before the age of 18. Been diving into the rabbit hole that is conspiracy theories. Really fun stuff to binge on at 0300. Going to put the rest of the tax refund to housing stuff like a better generator and other off-grid, mobile goodies.2022-02-07 Busy couple weeks, did some updates on some of the articles, replaced my sink and some exterior lights while the temp outside was above 20 degrees Fahrenheit. Going to get some Valentines plans ready for the next week. I still need to begin spring cleaning soon, boxing up things no longer used so I can get them moved when it begins to warm up. I am going to have to go back to some much older articles and re-write them. I went out drinking over the weekend, first time since Oct 31 of last year. It was a good experience, did some dancing and saw some old friends to catch up with. It was nice, need to plan to go out again soon.2022-01-23 Been downloading some more books I would like to read i the near future, I will be sure to upload them as I am finished. This weekend has been a weird one, a mutual friend needed to move in for a bit and get some things moved after breaking up with their partner. So I am now spending more time at work to escape the house. I cannot complain too much about it since they are doing their part to take care of the house and doing chores. Always nice to have an extra pair of hands and allows me to do what I like a bit more often. They should be moving back home in a couple days.2022-01-19 Did some pulls from my old timestamps and the wayback machine to get a good idea of each articles publish date. I wanted to make sure I was able to get close enough to the exact, if not the exact date, of each publication so I can roll back easier to update. I have been using Icecat and similar Firefox forks for such a long time I have been looking into Chromium and Brave Browser to get some experience on other browsers, really dig in to every feature and option. Brave, while having a bad reputation, so far is the best Out-Of-The-Box experience so far with a browser that focuses on "user privacy" while the wallet and BAT system is interesting, I cannot say I am a fan. The pings if makes on run puts me off, but turning them off in the settings along with editing some of the uBlock 'Brave blocker' filters helps a lot, and turning off auto update features brings the unsolicited pings to 0. I do like the tor wrapper they have pre-packaged for random onion browsing without a high level of sec. While Tor Browser is the default go-to, it is nice to see another browser implementing something similar.2022-01-18 Everyone in my household is sick but me. It might be because I am at work more often then home, but I have not caught whatever they have. Picked up a good stack of 30 pallets, I want to strip them down for wood and nails, but for now with the snow, I am going to have to tarp them until spring. I learned over the past month that my wife is the same as my mother-in-law, neither are great with money or have an internal clock. I am going to have to get out of the house more. Rewired some fixtures and fixed a Lazy Susan Shelf that was falling apart under a lot of weight. I need to just replace the whole thing for a inversion shelf.2022-01-13 Added some links after some emails. Running though some minor additions and odd-end info guides. Might add an image dump. See how that plays out. Wife is sick. And I am working overtime, so mother-in-law is doing some heavy lifting these next couple days.2022-01-11 Been updating the Library for more content, I also have been nailing down some comparison of services projects like Email providers, Browsers, and the like. I know these have been done a hundred times over, but I would like the stab at it. Been finding less and less time at home to work on some of these projects so writing will be slow. I also have been doing my yearly "What changed about these DEs rotation until I can settle into another DE for the next year. I need to update my repo to manage these changes but I can also move back when I am done. I have also been thinking about hosting some services on a server and seeing how that fairs, things like a hidden service chat, a site, and other odd and end things. But this is gonna have to be played by ear.2022-01-02 There is something that always keeps me busy, we have another small collection of tornadoes passing though. More damage and more cleaning up to do. Nothing major happened in my acres except for small branches and some debris. New year was nice, was not able to go out as per the usual due to things around the house keeping me home, heavy thunderstorms also came in around 2000, so I thought it best to do a small celebration here. Mother-in-law is depressed and keeping me on my toes. For the time being, I will stay busy and drink my whiskey.2021-12-31 HOLIDAYS ARE OVER! And I can get back to my normal work life along with my normal project schedule. Now I just have to wait out the rain, cut pallet wood down to size, and re-do my fire-pit for all the excess cull I need to burn.2021-12-13 Well I am back to living at work. A EF-3 Tornado swept through Kentucky near where I live and work. No issues at home, but work is an absolute mess. Pretty much gonna be pulling 5 12's for a while until production is back up and clean-up is finished. Nothing really went wrong at home. I know many were without power and internet for some time. Now many, those even just a couple acres away from me, lost their homes. My spouse is feeling some survivors guilt because of that I think.2021-12-10 Been a bit since I wrote last, have some planning to do for the new year along with some busy weekends. I finally broke down to edit my local repository mirror to match Devuan's. After fussing about my mirror for some weeks, I scrapped the whole thing and started over. I do have some additions to make to my distro list to add some other images and talking points. I also have been going through some survival and prep guides, so I will either be uploading the PDFs or rewrite some of the pages into XHTML to post here under their respected categories.2021-11-29 Holidays are over for the household, at least for a little while. Family members got sick so travel had to be canceled which left spouse and child here with me while I was working all of my overtime. To still get holiday festivities done, Mother-In-Law came to stay for the week, which was nice to have an extra pair of hands. Though had to do some shuffling around to get her a reasonable sleeping situation. Doing some deep de-cluttering now do make room for the added stuff. Boxing up a lot of old untouched objects, good-will trips, and re-spacing how we organize the storage. Gives me a good opportunity to fix up some old things to re-purpose or sell. Added some extra chat logs, dialog, and images to the TaleOfSpywareChat page, since there was a lot I missed the first go around some time ago. Need to add some more personal pages and try to scrap $100 in BTC to pay for the lifelong hosting for Neocities to make room for the extra content for the upcoming year. Hopefully the donation wallets will help subset the cost, but I am okay with paying outright for it.2021-11-12 Plans for the holidays have been made. Wife is going to Michigan for the week of Thanksgiving, leaving me to do as much overtime and chores as I like. I hope to get the house spotless, while also going enough overtime to get gifts for everyone when they get back. I want to make spiced and mulled apple preserves along with some other homemade gifts. Last year I made citrus jams and candied citrus preserves. People liked them, though I mainly used mine as garnishes for drinks. I still have 2 jars left from last year. Bought more mason-jars for them along with storage for my tobacco.2021-11-09 I have been thinking a lot about the state of things, cleaning and packing away things from the Spring and Summer, unpacking more for the Winter. I have been trying to fill my increasing time due to weather keeping me inside. May repaint the house with a fresh coat of primer and get the base-boards pristine again. I need to line the edges with new quarter-round. Maybe get new vinyl laid down in the spare. With holidays coming up, I am going to be cooking more preserves to mail out for friends and family. Maybe some batch liquor. I know holidays are hard on some people more than others. Best to keep yourself busy. I know as the darkness encroaches on your happy home, your happy life, always remember the looming doom of friends and family coming into your home; asking you questions deemed inappropriate in civil conversation like "How's the baby?" and "You see Sunday's game?". Sickening. Best of luck everyone. I will be busy boarding up my home to keep the Secret Santas out. They could be anyone.2021-11-01 Built my distillery, sewn some new clothes for the colder weather, and putting together some mounts for my tools. Busy time. I did try some new styles for the winter instead of my typical "Amish Inspired" look as my partner calls it. I tool a lot of inspiration from 1890 European styles for winter wear, including a lot of cloak-coverings. I think these will be easy to repair and maintain, but free up the space in the 'GO-Bag' I keep all my clothes in. Halloween went awesome. Baby was with grandmother for a trip and some spooky family fun. I decided to take the time to put together everything listed above, I think I ran collectively over the 4 days into the holiday I slept a total of 4 hours a day. I really wanted to grind though and get everything done. I feel a crash coming on so this week will be a recovery time for me. Got the opportunity to celebrate my marriage and bring in Samhain right by raising the dead.2021-10-26 Got some more tools and equipment, got some wood that would make a nice work table, and some selves for my workshop. Some jamming and canning kits for free which is nice. Got some projects lined up and am going to really go to town on the workshop this winter, lining the walls with insulation and adding some much needed heat sources. Maybe a small stove and test some new oven builds.2021-10-21 Need to get out this weekend. Might buy myself some beer, load up the truck, and go camping. Need to buy some chicken wire this weekend too. Got some writing done and cleaned. Eventually winter is going to creep up on me and I will be behind on some outdoor activities, so I have to get moving while I can. I want to re-dig out the fire-pit and mortar some brick in to make a grill. This winter I am going to start converting some rooms over and free some space up. At that point my child should be 4 or 5 months old when I get started so I won't have to be available to drop everything on a whim and I can sit down to do some larger projects.2021-10-12 Finished the reformat and added some tables where one would ne needed or better than the current layout. I also checked every page to ensure xhtml compliance. Mostly wanted to go back through to add or check information. Added images and prettied up most of the pages. Tired, baby has been sleeping longer and eating more. But have been doing some over-time and staying up with baby so wife can catch up on sleep while I am home. Been running consistently on about 6 hours of sleep for about a month now. My body has adjusted. I am finding there to be more time where I have energy to do things, but the inability to complete them unless I am doing to with a baby in my arms.2021-10-09 Attempting a reformat. Baby is eating and sleeping well. First week back to work done, getting some work done around the house while taking care of baby. Burned through a lot of old movies while maintaining the house.2021-10-01 Began work again, which is nice. Though in order to catch up I will be working for the next 8 days. I cannot say I did not miss working a job outside of the house, and being able to recoup some losses from my month long vacation will be nice. I was able to set some bonds up and make some money outside of working so financially I would have been in the clear for another 3 or 4 months. But at that point I would have needed to supplement a lot. I have also noticed in the last couple days my readership has gone far higher than I expected, which worries me but also gives me solace that people enjoy reading what I write. I am going to continue writing more DIY works, much like the Soap and Black Powder article recently uploaded, maybe make a new section of just DIY stuff. I am hoping to bridge to the process from things in order of skill and resources, example being how the process of making soap can be relied on heavily in the process of making black powder, etc.2021-09-25 Time has become illusionary, I stay up at night while my wife sleeps. Baby is still on the 2 hour cycle of naps and feeding. Another doctor's appointment today and baby is 1 pound above birth weight, which is well on track and above where we needed to be. I am trying to write a horror inspired by my favorite styled genre of cosmic horror to take up my free time. Everything else has been moved aside until to begin work again. Even as I am writing this, my baby is in my lap and I am arching my arms over to type. Interesting skills I have gained in the few weeks of being a father. I also learned to not wear any shirt I worry about staining.2021-09-16 Got the rhythm of everything down, taking frequent naps, and being able to break up naps with baby enough to get other things done. Feeling good about everything. Baby passed all tests and doing well. Eating plenty and pooping just as much. Another doctor appointment soon. I need to clean the house and trim the yard soon. Looking rough and needing to maintain the outdoors. Hard to do with little time but all together but okay. Been watching a lot of movies to fill the time and I should start work again at the end of the month. Just in time for spooky month. I cannot wait to being out the decor and furnishings to celebrate my marriage and good years to come. Been writing and jotting in my journals a lot more in baby diaries, taking a lot of pictures, etc.2021-09-14 Got the first doctor appointment out of the way and everything is 10/10 so far. Sleep schedule are whacked out though. Taking 20 minutes power naps 30x day. Been binge watching series and killing time. Been reading a lot child care and catching up on horror fiction I have been meaning to read.2021-09-12 My child is born. We are home and relaxing while we can. Getting the house to a near sterile level and keeping dust out of the main bedroom. Got some visitors from the family, but no touching yet. We need to wait a little more than a week before holding can start. I think I can take off for another 2 weeks roughly which is going to be nice for bonding but also help with my spouse's recovery. I am keeping a collection of nursing journals and pictures for later. I hope to keep up with writing.2021-09-07 Another couple false alarms, been working outside most of the week. Getting some of the bushes trimmed up, taking care of cold dead lumber, and re-setting my gardens. Went out and bought a camera for everything a couple days ago. One of the Nikon Coolpix from 11 years ago. Picked it up for cheap at a pawnshop. Wife's grandmother is in town and it is stressing me out to no end. I think I am going to continue working outside until something happens. I cannot stand being cooped up anymore, just waiting.2021-08-31 Had a false alarm on the baby last night. So a 2200 trip to the ER turned into a 0000 discharge. Baby can be do any day now. Got a new pipe from Missouri Meerschaum that I have been needing replaced, my old Diplomat straight stem cracked, so I happened a chance in and they had several corn-cob pipes in stock. So I picked up 3 for safe keeping. Been cleaning the house like mad, I even had time to reorganize my liquor shelf. I think I might get the loft area cleaned out as well to get some stuff moved out of the main living area. Trying to spend more time writing as well, but is has been difficult to keep myself sat down long enough to do it.2021-08-27 Busy night, a lot of debate in the chatroom I frequent, some issues stemming here and there. Wife is having her mom stay with us for a couple days to help with things. Baby is soon to arrive. Trimmed some bushes today, made us dinner for the week. And prepared the house for us to leave for hospital. I am writing some more, and also keeping a journal to archive my journey through parenthood. I am sure I will write more about it on here in a different section. A Misadventures of a parenthood.2021-08-23 Another deep clean, with 2 days off I got a lot more done than expected, was able to finally mow the lawn and collect the grass, fixed a couple doors giving me trouble, and set up the home-theater. Light is a problem though, may have to buy some blackout screens just to be sure. I have been trying to balance everything with home projects and getting far enough ahead in work to make sure I can manage everything without much hassle, but that leaves very little time to work on the computer. I am going to have to start carrying a notebook again to write things down, since I cannot rely on being behind a terminal.2021-08-19 I have been experimenting with some window managers. I took a break from seriously considering them after my EXWM usage. I need to start charting or writing down my writing ideas so I can work on them in short chunks. Feeling good now with the rain coming down as much as it is here, keeps the weather cool and I don't mind the overcast sky. Keeps me on a good schedule since I sleep through most of the day. It also gets me in a good mood for writing. I have some short stories, connected passages, and other odd-end stuff I would like to put up soon. Also I forgot that with Debian moving to 11 and there being no 12 yet on the testing branch. I need to update my repository before that happens so I can make sure nothing gets left behind. But I also wanted to split some packages into -Current- and -Stable- Just so I can set myself up for success.2021-08-18 Finally got the money back from a gun I sold some time ago on loan. A little over $400, so I went to the pipe shop local to me, sat down, had a quick drink and picked myself up a nice non Missouri Meerschaum pipe. The look and feel are different but good. But I will have to get use to cleaning it more often, since cob pipes don't tend to grime up as bad. The money is also going to help a lot with more projects I am working on in the home, so with a bit more liquid assets I should be able to get those done a bit faster now. I am also pretty excited that my store still has 'The Old Ones' collection from Cornell and Diehl. I have 3 of the tins, and want to collect the set. I may have to order the rest online, the the store did say they still can keep single tins in stock for direct orders.2021-08-16 Finally reached a point where I could sit down and update things. Baby-shower went off well. Though I remember why I dislike having guests over to stay for multiple days at a time, I do not like them taking up my personal space, or hear them talking. Guess its more of a personal misanthropy on my own time kind of thing. Baby is due any day now and my family are making a show of it. I think at this moment I am ready to get the whole thing going and over so I can adjust. But I feel like I am so busy trying to keep up that when she does go into labor, we won't even be prepared. I know its not the case, but that is how I fear things will go. I have been spending more time writing fiction stories which are a nice distraction, and work is cutting me some slack. The weather this week is going to be overcast and rainy, leading into the fall, which here means hot days and cold nights.2021-08-09 Feeling sluggish today, though I did work out and Monday mornings are always slow. Not much to do besides listening to audio-books and cramming out odd and end work from the previous week. Wife has a guest staying with us for the baby shower on the 11th, and baby shower is on the 13th. I need to make him a bed, but I am not sure if he will be sleeping here or in a hotel. Most likely on the couch. I need to start reading more, I use to read a book a month, but that has dropped from 1 every 3 months. So I will start again with classics and work my way back to more new series and books. I also need to comb through some hoarded boxes in the garage, to clear those out and make a Mom-Pop suite there, which will be handy for when the baby comes and we want to have family over for extended visits. Adding to my to-do list one odd week at a time I guess.2021-08-06 Been a slow day, I have been working hard to get ahead on schedules and paperwork so I can take time off for FMLA. I have been trying to call our main branch with little success, I keep getting voicemail with no return call. I really need to deep clean the house and schedule a time to hang out with friends. I will have to do it Saturday night to make sure I have time the next day to clean before family gets here in the following week. Had to fix the garbage disposal today which took about 30 minutes. Not too bad considering I was gonna have to take it apart. I have been thinking about writing more short stories again to pass time, but I am not too sure. Since the week has started, I began living in GNOME again today to play with some Sid repo stuff. I mostly wanted to try to get my main system to a point where I felt comfortable with some new packages that will be introduced in the next couple years. So I am running stable again on the T420 with a Testing and Sid box on the side to play with while I am prepping the house. Read through some nice emails recently, those always cheer me up knowing people like using the site as a resource. Though I mostly just fill it with journal stuff and random lists I don't want to save anywhere else. Turns out my need to order things works out for more than just me. Even though I have been a bit swamped with everything, I have been feeling really good lately, a lot of energy. Though I think its mostly just the weather.2021-08-03 With Debian Testing now frozen and the release date for Debian 11 being announced, I decided to set up a VM and test the new stable. I did a fresh install of all listed DE's to test the waters from XFCE. I am still not a fan of KDE or LXQt. LXDE is the same as ever, frozen in time, even with Debian being behind of -current-, LXDE will always look and feel a bit older than even some of it's parent DE/WMs. I have been using XFCE for some time and it gets better every release in my opinion. Though I don't have the issues with GTK3 that most do. Cinnamon and Mate feel good, classic though a bit heavy for what its giving you. I do like the option for GNOME or GNOME-Flashback. Flashback does tend to run lighter, but only by about 200~MB which given GNOME's resource usage, is not seeing a drastic difference between over half a gig or over half a gig +100MBs. Though I have to say, my love/hate relationship with GNOME is still hitting hard as I keep coming back for testing, or checking things out. It still hits a lot of sweet spots for me, and with a machine like mine, the resource usage is not a deal breaker, only killing about 20 minutes on battery life and still leaving me without about 6 hours strong with brightness up.2021-07-31 Got paid and went shopping. Finally slept a solid amount before work. I had an unexpected visitor who needed some help moving things, which is fine since I have a truck. I wanted to get more done today than just some shopping and house cleaning, but moving took up a couple hours of my time, and when I was done, I could not motivate myself further for anymore outdoor activities. Gave myself a haircut and did some bathroom cleaning. All together a pretty good day. Doing some walking tonight really helped wake me up and get me going. We are 35 days from the due date according to the OB. I have been putting together a memories box for all the baby stuff we want to save, like journals and hospital forms. I have been investing some time into Slackware recently, I am really enjoying the experience. While I still have a lot of reference to Debian in terms of base knowledge, I like Slackware's core function and feel.2021-07-29 I have been so tired recently. Almost too tired. I think its a mixture of stress and having my wife in the room when I am trying to sleep. I have been sleeping at work more, which is a pleasure I am given since I work anywhere from 2000-0800 most days. Usually I just play an audio-book and step into my restroom to kill about an hour. Then I get back up to complete paperwork. Not a bad gig for hourly pay. Still working 5-6 days a week though, which is a pain sometimes. I am grasping random things that interest me and putting them down on paper, which is still a positive.2021-07-27 Combing through and messing with some page alterations again. I woke from a nightmare about how something is not right and I cannot put my finger on it. Usually that creeping anxiety causes me to be in a cleaning mood and an urge to purge rubbish and nonsense from my writing, home, workplace, etc. To satisfy that need to solve a problem that does not exist.2021-07-23 Spent most of the day yesterday sleeping and watching movies. I did not feel too great about it, but my wife was wanting to hang out for a bit and who am I to say no to that? I will finish some pet projects this weekend. My father called in the morning asking about everything, while nothing has really changed. I let him know the goings on and he said he has the money I loaned him back with interest on top. I am thankful for it, $600 some off dollars is no joke for someone asking on a whim. I told him to hang on to it just in case, and he can give it to me in cash when I see him again in August. Sometimes I feel like out of the family, I am the only one to ever have everything figured out. Maybe I am just being an asshole about it, who knows? I have always been good with money, and I have been a loan shark about it most of my life. Friends, family, partners. I have loaned money to all of them. Even paying a bail more than I would like. Reasonable but I think I am going to have to stop soon, baby on the way, I cannot be a fence for people anymore, this reminds of when I was in college, setting funds out for some small town dealers in the area, helping them set up events and swaps, and after a long weekend of hustling, sitting down to count the books. I am pretty sure now that most of those guys are dead or in jail. I know of 3 that ran off to Nashville or similar and ended up getting busted or OD.2021-07-21 So I have been spending most mornings, when I get off work at 0800, making a home server. Something on my local network to save movies, pictures, and back up files. While I always had one before. I want to get something set up that is more user friendly for my wife, so she can upload all out soon to be baby photos. I have always been highly objective to her not backing up pictures or just saving them on a cloud or on her phone. While she still can do those things. I would be more comfortable if we had out own personal storage to save everything on, and something she can use. I was even thinking of converting some old TV's into a 'smart display' kinda thing, to play albums on shuffle of something.2021-07-20 I slept well today. Got some work done in the home and am trying to de-clutter again. Overall is going well. I need to clean out spare spaces to make way for future baby stuff. I am going to have to move everything for now to the garage. So picking up some boxes are in order. Truck also needs cleaning to add room for a baby-seat. So much to do, so little time.2021-07-19 Worked outside on my day off and ran about a solid 20 hours without sleep since my work schedule is still gonna be a pain. I am trying to manage my home and work life the best I can with a pregnant wife and work up the butt. She can only manage about 3 hours of being on her feet right now, we are about 50 days from the due date so she is freaking a little. I am trying to get all my outside activities done while I still can. So I might have to do the 'Pay to Win' strategy and start buying excess material that I may not need to speed up the process instead of building from found and resupply material. Its going to suck, but I am on a deadline. Also pregnancy photos are coming soon and I am in need to a professional cut instead of a home cut.2021-07-16 Trying to nail out a proper guns buying guide along with a reference to living off grid. Two topics I have been talking more about recently. I had to stop at a Gas-station to pick up cream since I forgot to add some to my coffee before leaving to work. I don't mind drinking black, but drinking a pot of coffee, I like to have a range of flavor. I have been finding myself increasingly bored of news recently. No on the political sphere, but tech news, interesting software, privacy rights, etc. All everyone wants to reference or talk about is "Smartphone security" and "Discord Privacy". I think the whole concept of good privacy and security is going to die with the Zoomers, I am sure. The whole idea that its too hard to live without a smartphone, comes up enough, for me to completely forsake the effort for them.2021-07-14 So I got put on call for the next couple weeks, so I can see myself working the next 14 days in a row. Whether is be 12 hour days or my typical 8. Paycheck is gonna be nice, but no time to spend it. I think I pulled a muscle in my back while lifting a table during one of my cleaning sprees. I think I might play an audio-book in my office, go into the restroom, and take a nap. Someone left an Arizona Green Tea in the fridge, which I don't want to say is the highlight of my work day... but it certainly is. I guess I am going to wrap up some paperwork and try to kill some time.2021-07-13 Got the Thinkpad repaired and up to snuff. Cooling is better and everything is running smoothly. Got my install corrected to this laptop and all keys restored and re-backed up. I forgot why I ever decided to not use the T420. The weight difference is minimal and I don't feel the difference between this laptop with a 9-cell over the X240. Did some cleaning and migrated from a 32gb USB to a external SSD. While I liked the USB, I think it was time for a change to something with a bit more internal space, I also reformatted my drives to get a fresh start on re-archiving a lot of the data. My collected was expanding well beyond 2TB. So I wanted to cut through it a little at a time to thin out some of the older, no longer needed data. Things like an old Debian ISO from 2009 for example. I ordered some new crochet hooks. I want to start making plarn bed-mats to give to some homeless folk near my area. But also to use some for camping trips and truck-bed liner. I have been re-reading Neuromancer, and it got me hooked on the idea of making a cyberdeck for my workspace and a fun side project. But before than I need to dig that pond out.2021-07-10 Turns out as I was shopping for new parts and what not for the thinkpad. I was began price checking all the listed laptops on ebay. And for the cost of all the replacement parts, its roughly about the cost of another t420 anyway. So I canceled the order and just put in a order for another t420. This should give me all the parts needed plus additional material like screws and screens. Now I just need to figure out what to do with the rest of the laptops I have. Began jogging again and have my times down pretty well. I can do my 2 mile in about 15 minutes, which I feel pretty good about.2021-07-08 All together ordered a new keyboard and accessories for the T420, they should all be here by Monday. Took the chance to reformat a drive and move from XFCE to GNOME. I am going to have to reapply thermal paste and dust everything good. I will do all that in the upcoming week when the keyboard comes in. Lazy day overall. I got a good bearing on paperwork at the office and am able to knock it all out in about an hour now. Leaving a remaining 5 hours to write and read to my leisure. Battery is holding up really well, though I cannot remember what kind of uptime I was able to get on it before. I am clocking about 6-8 hours of battery life under an average workload. I dug through some old storage and discovered all the electronics I thought I gave away still sitting and collecting dust. So I am going to revive some of them to make a baby monitor and security system for the house. I also need to dig out the pond we are putting in the back and make sure its covered correctly for baby-proofing, if need be. I would really like to have some fish.2021-07-07 So my x240 decided to finally kick the bucket, so now I am having to find a replacement keyboard for my T420 so I can move back to it and type comfortably. Picked up some baby stuff too, while I have the extra money to do so. All together its been a pretty awesome week. Had the holiday off so I had a 3 day weekend. Went to a buddies house and shot off fireworks. Their neighbor's kid wanted to light some off too, but did not light it correctly. Next thing we knew, we have 6 or 7 fireworks flying at our faces. Good ole' 4th of July if I ever had one.2021-07-02 Did some more edits. I think one of my worst (best) practices is I am constantly overthinking on the random goings on of my day. Re-implementation, improvements, tweaks, all to make my life easier, better, more robust. But that causes a lot of confusion in regards to previous practices and methods. Though it does prevent me from ever being bored.2021-07-01 I am disabling JS on my site moving forward. I have been watching more 'So bad they are good' horror films. Began talking to the baby more while in womb. I was always wondering why we debate "The best" smartphone messenger. Or whats "The Most Private / Secure" smartphone gizmo. No, there is no point. Smartphones cannot be secure, cannot be private, cannot be implemented in any meaningful way in the privacy setting. Asking that while maintaining the position that is the will be used on a smartphone is completely moot. Its insanity.2021-06-29 Added another article to CGFTPU section. Added several new PDFs. Killed a pot of coffee in the last 24 hours. Watched 3 Bad-Good horror movies.2021-06-28 Added some messages to html, did a deep clean of the house. And riding out the week until I can finally get a 2 day weekend. Probably gonna take it easy this week and give myself a mini vacation.2021-06-25 Talked to my spouse about the finer details in regards to money, where it comes from, where it goes, and how everything works over a 30 day period. She got a little overwhelmed about it all. I was telling her how much money we have today and how much money we will have in 3 years, as well as some details about our baby's accounts and funds. Over all I think it was good for her to find out and so we can talk more openly about money overall. Its something I try to avoid when it comes to our overall relationship and happiness, I usually think money is a burden for only me to deal with, but I think she is happy to be involved more. I recently got news I am moving from a 56 hour / 5 day work week and 48 hour / 6 day work week, to a much more manageable 40 hour / 5 day work week again. I am stoked for the extra free time again. Hopefully we can keep the new people long enough for me to enjoy it. I really cannot wait for the weekend, I need to catch up on a lot of yard work and odd/end chores. I also cannot wait to be able to chill and drink a little while playing some DnD. I also have been thinking about further expanding out the Paranoid User stuff. But I don't know about just yet.2021-06-24 Started adding some flare to the index. Also made my own 88x31 button. While simple, I like it. Though it does blend right into the background with .css on, but I am not worried about it for right now. I can always go back and change it. I have been reading about McAfee and all the conspiracy around that. I really hope his "Dead man switch" is not one big troll and some crazy shit really does go down. I have been archiving like crazy in the hopes something does happen. Been adding back to my prep stuff recently and stashing away some money each month. So things are looking up in preparation of having a baby and I should (if the math holds) to have him set up for his 18th. I also realized I am a moron who cannot remember what I have written before. So I have to go back and re-do some stuffs ("/" is not a "-"). I have also been thinking about all the things I need to do or want to do. Its so odd that when you are having a baby, it really kicks you into gear about projects and stuff. I want to plant another 15 trees in my backyard to create a natural perimeter, which I think would look great and be awesome to next summer to grant to full outer shade coverage while allowing the central part of my yard to be sunshine. Something to think about, lumber is worth more than gold at the moment.2021-06-23 Made the site 100% xhtml compliant I think now and corrected a lot of my negative writing habits. Finally rid myself of some skunks that have been near my door every evening. And catching up on some organizational projects. Got back around to exercising more and I am almost back up to my regular count. Feeling pretty good overall, but work is still a constant burden right now, hopefully we correct that soon.2021-06-18 I feel like I live here. Time is an illusion and the week blurs into one continual day.2021-06-17 Working massive amounts of overtime again. So to keep myself busy I have been playing with new installs and software. Trying to re-shock my workflow after living in XFCE for a while. Killing time playing chess online and reading more on DnD stuff for later builds. I am just tired.2021-06-14 Spent the weekend working or playing DnD, which brings me back to childhood of going to school and coming home to read about builds or lore from the new expansions. My current build is a Human Warlock with the Fey route. This has been a old fave of mine for sometime, being able to have high CHA for "The Face" roles or I can play sideline and be the "Master Blaster" for combat incase someone else wants to do all the talking. Warlocks while popular in the lore and from players, I think are also highly underutilized from a role-playing perspective. Dude sold his soul (in theory) so clearly this guy is willing to go pretty far for his goals, how far? Well that is up to you.2021-06-11 Today I was faced with the absurd, and his name is Frank. At work their was an accident, no one was hurt, there was no real damage, and there was no one to direct blame to. BUT there was an accident that involved the safety of the property and interest of safety of the workers. So I, being a safety worker, had to file a report. Get all the legal boxes checked, get all the names and dates, times and places. Everything written, detailed, and timestamped. And then I had to interact with the reporter, the guy who takes my report and reports on the report (imagine that being a job eh?) You can imagine someone who may work that job being a man who is detailed, organized, perhaps rigid even. No. The man who worked that job was absurd. Frank is the reporter, the man I give my report to and details in. Frank, with my report in hand, begins with the usual, a sequence of parroting questions and answers in my report to ensure what I had taken down was accurate. Understandable. Reasonable even, nothing out of the ordinary. Then it happened, my descent into odd. He began to ask "Who did this happen to? And can you spell it?"... Well its spelled in my report, all names taken here. I don't know their names off hand nor the spelling, I have their IDs scanned though, you can see them here as a list.... "And these people are hurt?"... No in my report no one was hurt, just some damage, they are witnesses to the event. The event listed and statements are given with their names are here on this page... "And these people caused the damage?"... (At this point I genuinely thought perhaps I was wrong, maybe I filed a wrong report.) No, did I do my paperwork wrong? Maybe the wrong type of details were given? "No, no, what happened?"... (This was the third time of me explaining the issue, and I am beginning to worry Frank is having a stroke) Damage to the equipment, no one was at fault and the damage is cosmetic minor some off end part which we have hundreds of. "So who is at fault? Did these people hurt anyone?"... (My confusion now accelerates into denial) Are you messing with me? I don't understand? Do you understand and can explain to me what you are needing? "No no, um, I just need the information"... he information here? On the page? Do you not need MY report but a report FROM ME? "Oh uh no um what else do I need?"... Are you new? Do you need my help? "No I have been here 9 years. What else do I need though?"... Just my report, so you can file it... Are you feeling well? Are you tired? "No, your supervisor will hear about this on Monday." ( And then Frank left). I standing in awe at a man working as a reporter for 9 years, walking a way with such confidence as a man almost a decade into his career knowing all there is to know about reporting, I can assume, can walk away like. And I began to wonder why I never thought about being a reporter.2021-06-09 My baby is kicking more so now that we are only 110 days left. It instilled something in me, something primal, inspiration and drive. I began to write again.2021-06-08 I realized that after ignoring some fundamental skills in GNU/Linux I have forgot much I have learned previously. I am going to have to retrain myself again and get back into rhythm in the ecosystem. Got some nice emails recently which really lifted my spirits. Wife is going to get glucose levels checked since we are entering the 3rd trimester. Did a serious amount of house cleaning these past few days, boxing up old stuff and taking to be donated, it is really surprising how much someone can end up hoarding over a year. Since I have been cleaning out the old collectibles closet I wanted to reprice out some of my MTG cards and try to sell the bulk. I have been keeping an eye on crypto the past couple weeks to see how the prices have shifted, I think I am personally safer investing my money elsewhere for now.2021-06-03 I have been extremely lethargic recently. I think it has something to do with missing some of the old hobbies I had when I was younger. I miss playing DnD with my old drinking buddies. I also feel like most of my writing ideas have not come from pen to paper. I think I may just go back though, try to clean this mess up again, do a reinstall of my OS. I find it easier when I have writer's block or similar issues, to go back through old work or do some tidying up. But that also could be a mental illness. Do I need a .css? I feel like it would be nicer all around if I didn't. May be something to think about.2021-05-27 Shutdowns have been happening a lot more at work so I have had a lot of free time to catch up on projects. 4 day weekend coming up, I think I am going to spend most of it camping again. I do need to keep working on the fence line. It has been an ongoing project for a while now. Every time I get finished with one part I get too busy to finish up the rest. But the same can be said for a lot of my outdoor projects. I need to dig a ice house too. All the while doing a tear down of the house to clean up and remodel. Big year.2021-05-20 Did a large run through all site content again. Did some updates and hyperlinks here and there. I added some bookmarks to the LINKS page to clean those out and provide some additional reading. Baby is due 2021-09-05 so I will be scarce, I will be sure to come back once a month to update and write about my adventures.2021-04-07 Thinking about a few new sections and additions. Mostly more manuals for the PDF section and maybe some guides on improvised weapons.2021-03-31 Gender reveal went off well, I am having a boy. So now the planning continues. House having additions and rebuilding a fence around the land. Having to rewrite some articles here to make readability easier. Also having to budget more so to ensure a good sum can be left to my child upon my death. So busy months are ahead. I am also adding to my stockpile of guns and ammo. Increasing storage space for dry food and baby needs in my current prepping supplies.2021-02-28 End of the month if finally here and I feel a huge wave of relief, my partner went to the doctor a couple days ago and we should be getting the blood work back soon. The blood work will give us gender and over all health. 13 Weeks as of today. I feel like I should be doing more in regards to my writing and other hobby-work projects, but I cannot seem to find the interest in it. Maybe just too much going on at home for me to be interested.2021-02-27 I am pulling all my crypto funds out today. The market to starting to look rocky and I have been holding them in there since 2018 so I think it is due time I put the money earned to good use. Taxes are coming in soon 03-03 and I need to start reinvesting in some projects I left behind during the pandemic. It is going to sound inappropriate, but I am going to miss the pandemic. It was a good opportunity to allow people to reset and prioritize.2021-02-22 I have not been able to have much free time this past week due to the snow storm that hit the country the last week. Rain on Sunday made ice that night, which made it impossible for people to get to work. Which leaves me to do the work for them. Monday and Tuesday were met with 6 inches of snow then another. After making sure my family was okay with being snowed in for the week, I spent much of my time working or sleeping. I am going to feel better when the paycheck comes in with my hazard and overtime pay.2021-01-16 I found out some time last week that my partner and I are having a baby. I also found out last week my grandmother died. So it has been one busy week. I am making attempts to relearn LISP in a more reasonable way, and re-reading "The Wizard Book" SICP. In the future I will be reading and uploading to share the "Crayola Books". I have mentioned earlier that uploading will be slow going, mostly due to lack of projects and lack of time. If any readers would like a certain topic covered, just shoot me an e-mail and I will be happy to research all I can about it. In other news, many social media platforms have been falling out of favor to the general public, majority have been leaning to the "right" in certain aspects, however this is not be a turn off to those of the "left". Social media and the social stream is a plague on the mind. It causes unneeded stress, added social pressures, and worst of all, a feeling of need or desire to vocalize your opinions onto the unsuspecting public. I would take the time now if you have not already, remove yourself from social media platforms. If you need to use them, find reasonable (ethical) federated alternatives, sign up for a (ethical) email or self-host. Downgrade to a flip-phone and enroll in a pre-paid like service. Limit your "Screen time", relax, drink some tea, maybe lift some weights? Take a deep breath. You know those old coffee containers you have been leaving next to the trash? Convert them into small decorative pots for some house plants. Remember they don't need a lot of sunshine, but some is nice, and you can use some too.2021-01-11 Plenty of news recently. Updates are going to be slow rolling for some time. New lives coming in to this world, old lives being taken out.2021-01-02 Every year I always try to pick a theme for the year and for the past 8 years that has been going very well. I may expand on this idea further in the future. But the idea goes something like this. A singular goal is hard to maintain and can cause unneeded stress. If your goal is to quit smoking, it is very singular and narrow. It is a good goal but if your entire year is headed to quit smoking, you can become discouraged or forget all together. However if your theme is "A Year of Health" it can be to quit smoking, exercise, mental health, and so on. A theme gives you other things to enjoy and gives you easier to obtain ideas. In the past several years I have gone through themes like "Wilderness" - where I take time to camp and to more off grid activities. "Health" - as mentioned. "Relationships" - where I worked in maintaining and grooming my social relationships with loved ones. "Writing" - this was the year I decided to make this website. And for this year "Cleansing" - my goal for this theme is to clean up my environment, clear my mental space, and work on organizing my living. 2020 has been a cluster of paperwork, jobs, and planning that I did not want to keep up with or drained my previously made preparations/savings so I figured I would need at least another year to rebuild that foundation.2020-12-26 I have to say with all honesty that I loathe the holiday season. Not so much in a way where the typical seasonal depression and stresses of familial gatherings begin to wear down the thin emotional shells we build up through the year. With 2020 almost behind us we have already hit our emotional breaking points multitudes over, and this time of year is the final cruel cherry on top of this horrid monstrous cake. I have noticed not recently a topic I left largely untouched but today I finally remembered, this time of year social media usage goes up, with quarantines and lock downs, the post 2016 political spectrum also radicalized social media, suicide rates are hitting record highs. We are reaching the final hurrahs of another great Fall of Rome styled failure. I welcome 2021, I welcome and praise those who remove digital addiction from their lives. I praise people who plant that garden, start that new year with a renewed sense or purpose. And I plead for mankind to tear their eyes away from the news, away from the feed, and away of the asking "why?".2020-12-23 Happy Holidays. Making attempts to add more content, I feel expanding the bin of reading materials would be nice so I am working on adding more to my personal collection of pdf. Eventually I will have to add more space though so I will most likely take up the offer of dropping bitcoin on the site. I may also add a bit more in terms of a personal touch.2020-11-23 Adding large QOL improvements to the formatting of the html and editing to some articles and posts. Making some attempts to curate down the amount.2020-09-29 It has been a while since I have updated last and have not been writing as much as I should have been, covid has made my work load double in the recent months. I feel like I am slowly withering away and my brain is being blended to mush. I will be revising my articles again soon to give it more up to date information soon.2020-05-20 I am writing a book I will be uploading here for free. It is going to be a revised edition to many of the Red Team Attack textbooks and the like. I have been working on things similar to the work I have already published but I feel this will be a good opportunity to refine and adapt my previous writing to a more workable and easily distributed collection.2020-05-04 I am now thinking about rewriting some of the older articles now do revitalize them. Some of the older ones like How To Disappear and the like. With my job now beginning to be more stressful than I desire its slowly starting to get under my skin. But all in all beggars cannot be choosers. Had an all-nighter followed by a 0500 meeting which sucked hard. Have been putting serious thought into working some other jobs while my current cools off with the Covid-19, in the down time I will be returning back to writing and maintaining the writings here.2020-04-24 Going through several articles today for quality of life updates. I still need to refine them down a bit more and make the articles less repetitive. Took a break from work due to Covid-19 and the work being not in my preferred working areas, it is a bit cloudy today so I took a breather and relaxed outside for a few hours. During that time I was thinking about moving away from BSD as I have found while the learning about the system fun, I also found for many cases the process tedious and a bit time consuming so I may move back to Debian just for the sake of simplicity and ease. Though I would like to say exploring alternative operating systems is meant to be fun but a personal journey, don't get too sucked in to the politics. Sometimes what is best for you is not best for everyone.2020-04-22 Tried and testing more Unix like systems. After having a bit of a debate about the spirit of Unix and Systemd, my stance on which I have written about, I have come to terms that in order to give most Unix like systems a completely fair and unbiased look. I have I decided to live in several in the upcoming months. I tested Slackware 14.2 Stable and had some issue and bugs such at networking issues and screen resolution issues that are actually common issues in the Slackware community. I wanted to give it a fair try and thought maybe the install was not great or I did something to break the install. So I went about re-installing and again the same issues occurred. Now this is not an attack on the Slackware system or the community, the issues I faced were all addressable and reasonable to fix, but they would have to be fixed on every install, which to me is not in my interest to do so. So I began researching the Unix philosophy more so and found the only reasonable way to give Unix a try is to not use a Unix-like system but a actual Unix system, so I went to Open-BSD. The install was easy, Open-BSD is stable, and no experience bugs in the last day or so. I will be living in Open-BSD for some time until I find it unusable or it no longer meets my personal computing needs. Also I would like to make a quick jab at the Linux Kernel, since Systemd gets a lot of flack for being bloated and having feature creep, how is it the Open-BSD kernel can have 2.9 million Lines of Code while the Linux Kernel 33 million Lines of Code. Systemd current at the time of this writing has 1273896 Lines of Code. I may have to come back to this issue at a later time.2020-03-27 Got relocated for my last shift. So I am unsure how to maintain a good internet connection. I was thinking tonight about the original Cypherpunk movement and its later generational spin-offs from the 90s and 2000s. I began to miss the idea of the guerrilla sequencing. The people were so ready to distrust the government, the banks, every system of power were under suspect. An then, as fast as it came, we forgot. It was a fleeting idea like smoke in wind. Maybe after this whole crisis is over and we collect ourselves, we will address the systematic issue that face our dying system that is American Capitalism.2020-03-24 After going over some finance I am beginning to believe that the future is bright for the generation to follow ours. After everything is said and done, when the crisis has hit its peak and begins to fade, the children after us will live in a time of wealth and sustainable goods. With pollution at an all time low and those who once profited from the blight and cancer that is globalization falling. We may see a time where green energy, local owned and sustained goods will become more prevalent. Social distancing is on the public minds and has become a buzzword in the culture, I am sure we will teach our children what was it and how it was to live this way. They are calling it "This generations 9/11" and I can certainly see the similarities. The fear and hardship, the unknown, the economic collapse and failure of The American Way. Though we will survive this certainly, I do not see this leaving the memory any time soon. People are making a panic, the politicians are making a panic, the world though always chaotic is becoming more unraveled and this is only a good thing. This is a good thing because in due time we will have the benefit and clarity of hindsight. We will say things like "This could have been stopped easily with XYZ" or "This is how we can make things safer with XYZ" our children will reap the gains of our losses. The market adjusts, the social stigmas get dropped, and people see the progress by the tracks we leave behind.2020-03-19 I was reading the news about the virus and the movements it has had on the world. I have also found that there are a few who choose to believe this is some kind of engineered plague to control the populous. This in my opinion is silly. The evidence does not back this claim up and is upsetting to see the anecdotal evidence that is presented. My largest argument that I tend to bring up when a claim such as this is brought up, is "Why?" and in this case the "Why? Because of control" does not make sense. For example is the EU and USA we have been overly back and forth on what 'We' as a nation should do. If I was in a position to maintain control, to be in control, and had a way to do so. I would be vamping up fear, which in most outlets most of the fear is derived from social media and the public. Is Covid-19 serious, yes. But is it a plague, no. If a group or government or bad actor with the power and resources engineered this to maintain control, they are doing a poor job, I am still working, the military has not been called, there are not riots or distrust of the 'Other'. People are concerned as they should be and my largest fear is not what Big Brother or what not is doing, It is what they are not doing. They are not making quick, decisive, effective movements like those who would want lockdown would do. They are not overtly fear mongering the 'Other' making us distrust potential inferiors or defectors like a regime would. They have not taken away tools of resistance or revolt like guns. If they engineered a plague or used the infection to gain some control, they need to workshop this plan a bit more and take some hints from RTS Games and Simulators to maintain order. If I can drive home and see people jogging in the morning, and people out of work, the economy tanking, and people concerned not by there neighbors but by the government. This is not a good control method. To maintain power you have to engineer problems like Economic downturn and Government distrust outside the social norms (Which always happens in times of crisis) and be a divisive solution to those problems, which the world leaders have not done. This claim is doubtful if not down right absurd. I will be making a more detailed response in the upcoming days.2020-03-17 Due to the recent pandemic and being where I am, I went off grid for a few days to prep my BUG-Out site. Spent about 3 days out and had time to myself. Due to the focus being more on resources and protection I have not spent much time writing. I did however get news that trucking shipments will be suspended which gives most places about 2 weeks of supply, whether it be Food or Gas, most places will be closed in about 2 weeks. They are also in the talks about closing roads only for emergency personnel and high demand occupations like doctors or nurses, military, etc. So I will be at home for some time and then moving off grid when the wind turns. I will be maintaining my journal for that time however. Where I live is very rural. I may not be able to be online without satellite, but for those in the States and are potentially facing civil unrest. Prepare now, have a place to stay, and have 2 weeks of food. Be safe.2020-03-10 Added ProjectMelody.txt and my comments on the waifu wars of chaturbate. I found this topic both fun to research but infuriating to read the comments on. If you feel threatened by a VR Model perhaps you need to focus up on your personality since that's all Melody is, a rendered model on a personality.2020-03-05 Added a PDF html section to free up some space on the primary index. I am going to make an attempt to keep the txt files on the index page to allow an easier reading experience without having to dive too deep into rabbit holes.2020-03-03 Added some more pdfs to the roster, added a social engineering section. I should do more writing on the subject that may come up soon. Also got to see my site added to a lainchan sec thread which makes me get the warm and fuzzies. Good weekend.2020-02-22 Feeling generally lethargic recently. I want to focus on my writing but am finding it difficult to keep up with. I currently have about 6 unfinished projects and 4 unfinished books I need to read. I want to be more social but find the whole experience strenuous and exhausting. I think I need to rekindle my passion by writing more simply and not to focus too much of my energy on making things perfect.2020-02-21 Going back through some PDFs I have downloaded at one time or another, I am having to upload and delete some things here which should all be in the OTHER FILES section for those who would like to read them. I am also going to start on some Kali tutorials in regards to basic Wifi Hacking and the like to start and slowly slip into more details about the tools released with the 2020 Kali Linux.2020-02-18 I have roughly about 100 ideas of things I need to write about, transcribe, or upload. I am going to make an attempted to run back though some of the articles and update them as needed in the near future but for now I am going to focus on new content. I will have to make a more valiant effort to make the Index.html more clear and easy to understand.